Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Realization

Do you ever have those moments where you come to a crossroads and you know it is time to make some tough decisions. I always feel a sense of realization when I get to those spots.

Recently I have had a few of those moments. I have realized that I have to make some decisions about my time, my future and my commitments. And they aren't always fun decisions.

I also realized a long time ago that I am an innate people pleaser. I like for people to be pleased with me, my work, my leadership, my decisions, my life. In fact it happened just this morning. I received a simple pat on the back and I felt better, no GOOD because I had pleased a person.

But I don't really want to be a people pleaser. I want to be a GOD pleaser. And sometimes that means making hard decisions. Decisions that other people dont understand. They believe in me so much that they think, no they KNOW that I can do it. And I probably can. But I don't want to. And I truly do not think it fits into God's purpose for my life. So I hate to not please people but I have to do what is right for God, for me, for my family. I have to make my decisions that are pleasing to God, not to others. I have to find my worth from His pat on my back.

I want to hear the words, "well done, good and faithful servant" and that means living a life designed with a purpose that pleases God. I want to say Yes to Him and No to Others. I want to see what happens when I let Him take over and make decisions based on His revelations to me.

So I am. I am making decisions about my time, my commitments and my life that other people may not understand. They may not be pleased with me. But I'm ok with that, I am recovering from my addiction to people pleasing and becoming who I really am.
Always,

4 comments:

Granny Lisa said...

This is amazing! Just when I think I could not be prouder of you...you never cease to amaze me.

Love,
Mom

Runningmama said...

People pleasing is the thorn in my side. I pray blessings on you as you choose to overcome. You never cease to amaze ME either!

Jess said...

Thanks gals, I love you guys!

Lisa said...

Jess,
I just read your comment on my blog, and I am so excited you are going to get Behind Those Eyes. I will be praying for you as you read it, that God will reveal truth to you like you have never known before. The journey may be, at times, tough, but friend, it will be so very worth it.

Looking forward to hearing more from you! May God be with you, "Military Mommy!" (great title!)

Lisa :)