Do you ever have those moments where you come to a crossroads and you know it is time to make some tough decisions. I always feel a sense of realization when I get to those spots.
Recently I have had a few of those moments. I have realized that I have to make some decisions about my time, my future and my commitments. And they aren't always fun decisions.
I also realized a long time ago that I am an innate people pleaser. I like for people to be pleased with me, my work, my leadership, my decisions, my life. In fact it happened just this morning. I received a simple pat on the back and I felt better, no GOOD because I had pleased a person.
But I don't really want to be a people pleaser. I want to be a GOD pleaser. And sometimes that means making hard decisions. Decisions that other people dont understand. They believe in me so much that they think, no they KNOW that I can do it. And I probably can. But I don't want to. And I truly do not think it fits into God's purpose for my life. So I hate to not please people but I have to do what is right for God, for me, for my family. I have to make my decisions that are pleasing to God, not to others. I have to find my worth from His pat on my back.
I want to hear the words, "well done, good and faithful servant" and that means living a life designed with a purpose that pleases God. I want to say Yes to Him and No to Others. I want to see what happens when I let Him take over and make decisions based on His revelations to me.
So I am. I am making decisions about my time, my commitments and my life that other people may not understand. They may not be pleased with me. But I'm ok with that, I am recovering from my addiction to people pleasing and becoming who I really am.